Today, I tried to help my friend (let’s call her Diandra, not her real name btw) because Diandra told me the other day that she was scared that this other girl (who will be called alex, not her real name) would take her spot in our friendship of three. So I hung out with her and I asked her what was wrong and stuff and tried to communicate with her but she never responded. I got mad, like really mad. I had made an effort to help her but she denied it, so I went away and NO ONE went to look for me. Not Alex, Not Diandra, Not my guy friend (who we will call Jay) and NOT my other friend in our friendship of three (let’s call her fiona). I sat down on the concrete, thinking. I came back to get changed to my proper uniform as I was in PE gear and NOT Jay, Alex, Diandra OR Fiona came up to me and asked where I went! They didn’t even acknowledge me there when my other guy friend (who sorta comes and goes) did and I wasn’t even that close to him! Plus TWO other girls, who I wasn’t that close with also noticed! Yet my CLOSEST friends in that HORRID school DIDN’T. Then I was ABSOLUTELY mad. They HAD NOT noticed I had disappeared and didn’t care. It’s as if all I was, was just a puff of smoke to them, As long as I was gone they wouldn’t go search for it. I could disappear and no one would notice. I had a burning sensation down in the pit of my stomach and it was hate. But I didn’t hate on them exactly. So I sorta just highly dislike on them. I ditched them after school and didn’t walk with them. Diandra sent me a direct message (a long with other people) viewed it and didn’t like or comment (which, weirdly enough, is a big deal to us) and most of all, I haven’t chatted to them and that’s sorta a daily thing. I’ve never felt like this. I’m mad, sad and pissed off at the same time, But strangely enough I’m slightly happy. Although I don’t like being alone and the way they treated me was absolute horse crap, I was glad that Diandra (who is commonly hated for her obsession of boys and depression because of boys) was off my shoulders. That Alex and Fiona (who are both very annoying actually) are also off my shoulder but the person who I will miss the most is Jay because he was my best guy friend and I’ve lost him to Diandra. One final goodbye to Jay. Goodbye.